El's issues (other than he is hopelessly loving Paul, who is clueless about this) are related to the 'outside' relationship, notably his family - his mother being a hoarder or his sister who always falls in love with the wrong guy. Meanwhile for El, he has no problem in that matter - I mean, El is pretty confident about his sexual orientation.

It is best to understand that from his inside perspective, to know what his thoughts, his issues, his hopes, his dreams, his insecurities, and his resolutions to that matter. This story is Paul's journey, he needs to analyze his feelings towards El, and to see that he's not just a second hand choice. I am gladly rounding up the rating even with the point deductions.īoth authors pull it off very well and I feel that it all makes sense. Because if the question is do I like this? My answer is without a doubt, yes, I am in love with it.

But when it counts, it is perfect read for what I need at the moment (yes - rating can change in different situation :p). If he wants to keep Paul, he’ll have to convince him he’s worthy of love-and he’ll have to admit that attachment might not be so bad after all.įirst Edition published by Riptide Publishing, September 2012. Paul, who’s so blind to El’s growing attraction, even asking him out on dates doesn’t seem to tip him off.Įl may not do relationships, but something has to give. Paul, who’s not over his ex-fiancée and is probably straight anyway. Paul, who doesn’t seem to realize that he’s talented and kind and worthy. Despite that belief, he keeps making up excuses to see Paul again. His own family’s dysfunction has taught him that love and relationships lead to misery. He could really use a win-and that’s when he meets El. About the only things he has left are a pantry full of his ex’s kitchen gadgets and a lot of emotional baggage. He can barely afford his rent, and he hates his house.

Second hand heidi cullinan